February 2009 | lauren blogs... sometimes.

35 days to go.

Feb 282009

35 weeks down, maybe 5 more to go! I would think that with my pre-eclampsia they’d want to deliver earlier, like at 37 weeks, but I’m no longer getting that vibe from them. My obgyn gives me mixed signals. It’s annoying.

My slightly crippled husband put together the shelves for Peanut’s room today but I don’t have enough bins to start putting stuff away. I need to line the dresser drawers – why don’t I work on that this afternoon? JuJu is taking a nap so I need to find something to pass the time. That sounds pathetic but usually on Saturdays we do nothing but snuggle on the couch and play video games so I don’t know what to do with my time now! Gaw I’m a loser.

I started crocheting a blanket for Peanut with some yarn I bought on clearance yesterday at Hobby Lobby. I figured that because it was fluffy that it would be quick to whip up a blanket but I was wrong. It’s hard to tell where I’m supposed to go next due to its fluffiness. If I don’t make anymore progress on it I won’t be upset.

Also today is JuJu’s last day as a smoker. I’m so proud of him for making the decision to quit. He obviously doesn’t have a choice since smoking and then touching the baby is a big fat NO-NO but I know it’s still hard for him. I was never addicted to smoking – it just became a habit for me so quitting was easy. For JuJu it was an addiction and I know it’s going to suck while he gets over it, but quitting cold turkey is really the best way to stop smoking. After three days all of the chemicals from the cigarettes will be out of his system and after 21 days the cravings will subside. I’m glad that he’s quitting. When he comes back inside the house after smoking he smells so bad that it makes me want to vomit.

Okay, enough is enough. I am going to find something to keep myself busy that doesn’t involve being on the computer or watching TV. Ooh, like sterilizing bottles! Or organizing Peanut’s clothes! (Nesting is retarded, therefore I am a retard)

36 days to go.

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Feb 272009

I am kind of pissed off.
Anyway, baby-related………… I need to find things to do to pass the time. My mom recently made a bargello quilt (her’s is much cooler looking than the ones on the site, I just don’t have a photo of her’s) and she explained to me how it’s made. It doesn’t sound too terribly challenging so I may give it a try. If I make a baby-sized one it won’t take too long. I’m not too concerned with precision, either. Technique isn’t my thing – I just like to make things and I don’t like it when a project takes too long. I’m a fan of instant gratification. Although, since I do not have my own sewing machine I will have to do it at my mom’s. That doesn’t bother me since I like being around her and she’s very helpful! My mommy pins things for me and will fix my boo-boos since I kind of suck at sewing.
I bought cubey shelves for Peanut’s room yesterday so that we have a place to store her crap. Babies require so much stuff it’s just unreal.
Once JuJu’s back feels better we’ll be able to get the bed and then I can finish her room and take some pictures. Yay!!

37 days to go.

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Feb 262009

My doctor’s appointment went swimmingly well – that’s a lie. My BP was 140/90 which is high but ‘normal’ for me at this point. I lost four pounds since last week due to me not retaining as much water. Yay! I also have protein in my urine which means that I have pre-eclampsia! WOO HOO! It was really only a matter of time before the symptoms starting showing up. Luckily that’s the only one I have. No blurred vision, headaches, etc. I have been instructed to be as inactive as possible which would be fine except that the dishes do not wash themselves and we still have some work to do in the baby’s room. JuJu is working from home because of his back injury so he is keeping an eye on me and won’t let me vacuum, do dishes, or anything that involves standing. You know what that pill of a husband told me?

‘Do an art project but nothing strenuous.’ I don’t have anything to do at the moment! I got all of Peanut’s room decor painted (step stool, frames, name plate thingy) and I haven’t gotten any yarn to crochet her blanket yet because I’m not sure if I’m even going to do one. I started on a sewing project but the machine is at my mom’s. Unless I actually go to the craft store and pick something up I really don’t have anything to do. Since I have already gone shopping today (I love Target. LOVE IT) I don’t feel like I have the energy to drive somewhere and walk around. I do, however, have enough energy to load the effing dishwasher.

So my belly button is officially an outtie now. Stellar! I have a mole in my belly button and now it sticks out even further. It’s hot. Really. I also noticed that I’m getting a considerable amount of fuzzies on my tummy. Luckily the hairs are blonde but WTF is that about? Haven’t human beings evolved? I keep warm by wearing clothes, not growing more fur! Also my fingers are huge and sausagey and I no longer have ankles. That’s right, I’ve got cankles. Not gross ones, but they don’t drastically taper right above the foot like they used to do.

Less than six weeks to go. I can do it. That is, as long as I can complain along the way.

38 days to go.

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Feb 262009

Ah, there’s that 38. Maybe time is moving more quickly than I realize. I hope so!
This week has been insane so far and it’s only Wednesday. I’m glad that I’m not working because I wouldn’t be able to handle all of this in addition to my shitty job.
Sunday night my grandpa dies.
Tuesday morning JuJu’s back goes out. OMFG what an ordeal that was! He could barely sit up let alone walk down three flights of stairs to go to the doctor. We eventually called an ambulance and they strapped him to a chair and manuevered him down the stairs. He was in so much pain and there was nothing I could do to help him and I hated it. I could tell that he couldn’t stand feeling so helpless. After we were done with the ER visit we went to my mom’s house so that we could crash on the foldout couch on the first floor of her house. There was no way JuJu was getting up the stairs to our apartment. Last night was awful. The ‘bed’ was uncomfortable and I eventually gave up and slept in one of their upstairs guest rooms. Starting this morning he got progressively more mobile and by the afternoon we returned to the apartment. He’s still in pain but at least he can walk again which is a huge leap from yesterday.
After I got him settled in at home I bailed and went to the hospital where one of my BFF’s had just had her baby. He was in the NICU so I didn’t get to see him but I got to chat with her for a little bit. Luckily the rest of her visitors had left so she didn’t have to be courteous anymore. She could talk openly with me about it and it sounds like giving birth is kind of painful and messy. I can’t wait!
Hopefully I’ll get to meet her kiddo tomorrow. He was 9 pounds when he was born That sounds kind of big to me. I bet he’s adorable.
I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow and I’m hoping that my obgyn will be able to rotate Peanut unless she has flipped on her own. I can’t really tell.
I just want her to come out. I’m done.

40 days to go.

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Feb 242009

34 WEEKS

Yeah, I’m pretty much ready for this to be done. I can’t take looking or feeling shitty anymore.

I started my Z-pack today. Four more days to go. If I don’t feel better soon I will go insane. My head is full of pressure.

I bought some housey stuff today at Wal-Mart and that kind of cheered me up / distracted me. I bought some drawer liners so I have a project for tomorrow which will hopefully knock out a big chunk of time. I’m still on FMLA with no word to the contrary so I need to make sure I have plenty of low-key things to do to pass the time.

I picked up the rug today and it’s perfect. I’m grateful that I can focus on something else other than Grandpa right now. I can’t handle it.

I am not even going to attempt a witty blog title.

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Feb 232009

My paternal grandfather died tonight.

He has been in and out of the hospital for his heart for about three years and tonight he went in because he had an anurism in or near his heart. He didn’t make it. My dad and step-mom were driving to see him (it’s about a 6 hour drive from Dallas) in the hospital and on their way there my dad called me to tell me that he was in the hospital. My thought was ‘WHAT NOW!!’ Him being ill has been draining for everyone and if it’s not one thing it’s another.

About an hour or so later my dad calls me again. I knew it. I JUST KNEW IT. He wasn’t calling to tell me that they made it safely, or that my grandparents say ‘hi.’ He wasn’t calling to check on me to ask me about my BP which he usually does every evening. No. He was calling to tell me that Grandpa was gone.

I can’t go to the funeral because I can’t travel.

I just saw him a month ago for his 80th birthday.

I need some rest.

41 days to go.

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Feb 222009

Last night was better. JuJu went to bed around 6:30pm since he didn’t get any sleep the night before but woke up around 10pm so we stayed up until 2am playing Gears of War. We finally finished the first one and started on GOW2. The game frustrates me but I like killing things. It relieves stress and it’s something that JuJu and I can do together. There aren’t many activities that I like doing that he also likes so once we find something we jump on it.

My head is still congested and it doesn’t seem like any of the medication I’ve got is helping. At least I was able to get some sleep last night. The trick is that I sleep on my right side and only my right side. The second that I roll over onto my left side I start coughing and

can’t go back to sleep. I’m not sure why but I’ll do whatever I have to in order to get a decent night’s sleep.

OH! Very exciting day yesterday! My Lock n’ Locks came in yesterday and so did my nursing bras! I love getting packages – it’s like Christmas morning except that I already know what it is and I had to pay for it.

I reaaaaaaaaaaaaally want to put up my wall decals today but my husband is crippled and can’t do much. I don’t know what the hell he did to his back but it was probably something stupid. Maybe I’ll just borrow a little step ladder from my mom and do them myself. I need to get something to line the dresser drawers with and some new handles for the dresser. I guess I’ll be making a trip to Home Depot today (woo hoo!). I haven’t gone anywhere by myself in awhile so maybe I’ll do that this afternoon. It’s nice to have some ME time. ME ME MEEEEEEEEEEEE.

42 days to go.

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Feb 212009

Another sleepless night. I am so over being sick. I did go back to bed around 9am and actually slept until 12:30-ish which was nice but obviously not enough. My left arm hurts. It feels like someone just as fat as me is sitting on my head. I hate being sick. HATE IT. It’s beautiful outside today and I want to enjoy it but I can’t. I will not be going anywhere today. I’ll just organize and admire the baby clothes. That’ll be my task for today.

I actually made this for my sister’s baby shower in ’07 but it’s so cute and kind of crass so I thought I’d share it. I need to see if I can make a knocked up Hello Kitty. Now THAT is just wrong.

43 days to go.

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Feb 202009

I feel like shit.
My doctor’s appointment yesterday was fine. My BP was still high (146/84) and my OBGYN confirmed that I do in fact have a cold. Awesome!
Luckily I didn’t have any issues falling or staying asleep last night but as soon as I woke up this morning the coughing started and I began to feel bad again. My left ear feels like I have a plug in it and my nose is stopped up. My cough is making me gag. I took Benadryl and now I’m getting sleepy which would be okay – I love naps – except that my cough has returned which will make it hard to fall asleep. I also planned on getting my oil changed today and I would like to do that sooner rather than later but the idea of going anywhere seems stupid right now. Maybe I will just go back to bed.
Yes, let’s do that.

44 days to go.

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Feb 192009

Last night SUCKED. I felt so achy and feverish that after a hysteric crying tantrum JuJu took me to the ER. It turned out that I had an upper respiratory infection which is something I get all the time. I got it a couple of months ago and decided not to fill my prescription which in hindsight might have been a mistake.

All I wanted was to get decent night’s sleep. I think once the ‘I can’t breathe through my nose’ symptom goes away I’ll be able to sleep properly again. The aches don’t keep me awake all night. They make it difficult to fall asleep initially but once I’m out I’m OUT. I just can’t breathe through my mouth while I’m sleeping. It sucks.

I still don’t know if I am going back to work or not. I have a doctor’s appointment this afternoon and they might not let me go back, but as of right now my company won’t let me return to work either. I’m grateful that I didn’t have to go to work this week this I’ve been sick and I haven’t gotten much sleep. I finally decided to do some cleaning today but after loading the dishwasher I was worn out. Gotta love being sick and four-million months pregnant! I really just want to sit around and organize baby stuff but we haven’t even started on Peanut’s room yet. I ordered the rug, the wall decals (it’s going to be so cool!), and most of my art projects are finished. I just don’t have the energy to get much done in a single sitting (well, if I could sit while doing it I’d get more done).

The rest of the house is messy, too. I want to knock out the laundry today but I get too exhausted too quickly. I will probably wait until JuJu gets home from work so he can help me. It goes by faster that way. Besides, he’s supposed to be taking on most of the chores anyway so I can ‘take it easy.’ He’s usually so helpful and sweet and the perfect husband but when it comes to cleaning he has to be in the mood and he’s NEVER in the mood. I’m not in the mood to do it either but I don’t like walking barefoot on dirty carpet or not being able to get a glass of water because the sink is full of dirty dishes. HELP ME. Seriously.

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