Yesterday and today up until about three hours ago SUCKED HARDCORE.
Issue #1: Avery decided that no, she did not want formula anymore and breastmilk must be served to her in a way that will make her work the least. Fine. In order for her to not starve I will accomodate this. I still try to get to take my breast when it’s at its fullest so the milk will come out easier for her but she’s a quitter just like her mommy.
Issue #2: Avery also decided that she must have something in her mouth AT ALL TIMES. This is annoying because she can’t quite grip her pacifier or put it back in her mouth if she drops it so I am constantly rescuing the damn thing and giving it back to her.
Issue #3: She has to be held AT ALL TIMES. She will not fall asleep unless you are holding her and the second you put her down she will wake up.
I had a post-op appointment today and once I got her into her carseat with her screaming the entire time I broke down. I was apprehensive about taking her anywhere by myself but I figured that I need to just go for it especially since this was a quick there-and-back trip in between her meals and she could sleep or chill out while the doctor poked at my incision. Well, I didn’t make it. I called my mom sobbing and asked her to go with me to the doctor so she could help me with Avery. She sat in the backseat with her and then held her while I was at the doctor’s. I do have to mention that the instant I started the car Ave fell asleep. Jerk. Mom told me that a lot of babies like car rides so next time if she is fussy and I am about to go somewhere with her that I should just GO and she’ll calm down. She also slept when mom held her. The. Entire. Time. No fussing. I was happy that Ave had calmed down and was getting some sleep but at the same time I was jealous that she was sleeping and doing so well with my mom but she wouldn’t do it for me.
HOWEVER, I am typing this with a sleeping baby in my lap. Booyah! After my mom left I fed Avery on my bed with the lights out to try and set a quiet and sleepy mood. Then I laid down with her in the crook of my arm all bundled up and she eventually fell asleep and so did I. YAY! We slept for about two hours and hell, she’s sleeping again so I might join her in case we have a repeat of last night’s performance which I like to call ‘The Dance of Sleep Evasion.’ She slept for about twenty minutes at a time and then would wake up screaming until we picked her up. All she wanted was to be held which is totally great except that once we’d get her to fall asleep and set her back in her crib she’d wake up again. It was a nightmare. Poor JuJu had to go into the office today which means that his sleep-deprived ass is going to be at work all day instead of at home where he can at least sleep in a little later and be more relaxed. He will probably be grumpy when he gets home and I’ll feel guilty for getting to take a nap. But, I was home with her all day so really who deserves a break here?!
I think I’ll go back to sleep. This is just too nice to pass up!