I am in a funk (I feel like I start a lot of my blog posts with this sentence). Lately I have felt draggy and out of focus. We have settled into this two-working-parents routine and it seems like everyone is content with the set-up except for me. I love writing full-time. I really do. Some days are a drag and after seeing the gazillionth piece of jewelry they all start to look the same. I try to keep it fresh if, for no other reason, than to not bore myself to death. My boss seems to like my copy and hasn’t said otherwise. There are some non-writing issues at work but they really don’t pertain to me so I just hide at my desk which is easier to do now that I no longer have pink hair.
Back to the funk. We want the funk? Gotta have that funk? Not exactly. I have let myself down. My family has slid back into our old and very bad eating habits. We do alright during the week but on weekends we go cray-cray for junk food. Avery is spared from our MSG-filled benders since I am very meticulous about what goes into her mouth so don’t assume that she’s gorging on Blue Bell and Domino’s just like her obese parents. And maybe that’s the problem. Maybe I should worry more about what I’m putting into my body just like I do with her. I don’t want to not practice what I preach when it comes to nutrition. That isn’t fair to her or to me. I deserve to be healthy, too, and I’m the only thing standing in my way.
As I was trolling the blogosphere this morning I stumbled across a month-long healthy eating challenge at Eating Rules. It was the first time I had ever heard of this blog and I can’t even remember how I found it or this challenge. The concept is this: eat healthy, whole foods for the entire month of October. Nothing processed and nothing you can’t pronounce will enter your body. Could you do it? Could you stay away from the convenience foods you’ve grown (literally) to depend on? This would mean that you couldn’t eat at most restaurants because there is no way you could guarantee that the meals were created from whole foods. This challenge, which I am seriously considering joining, would have been easy peasy back in January. I was eating super healthy at the beginning of the year. I was losing weight and exercising and taking care of myself. I slowed down and then eventually gave up on exercise after I had been working full time for a couple of months. I felt like I no longer had the time to devote to working out; I wanted to train for a half marathon and that never happened. After running in two 5k races I was hooked on the sport but there was no way I’d have the time for a half marathon or its training regimen. When would I have time during the week to run ten consecutive miles? How do people with full-time jobs and families have the time to do this kind of stuff? It is disheartening and makes me want to give up before I even finish lacing up my running shoes.
So what exactly am I trying to say? I don’t know. I need to make changes and I feel like I say that all. The. Time. I’m tired of it. Can’t I just do it and stick to it? Why must life get so muddled and frantic all at the same time?
Have you ever wanted to change something, anything, in your life? Were you the roadblock that you had you overcome in order to accomplish that goal? And how did you knock yourself over and get out of your own way?
Really, isn’t the only thing standing in your way YOU? Or, in my case, ME?